Ugh...

This world will never be what I expected, and if I don't belong who would've guessed it?


Sometimes I look at life in the city and I see so many people who have this look of hopelessness on their faces and it makes me so sad. I know that they look at me and I just feel that they don't think that it is fair. Here I am walking around with a smile on my face, life is going how I want it to be.

And it's depressing seeing how the world is so cold for so many people around me. This city is falling to pieces around me and here I am, all the hope for the future.

Even if I say it'll be all right. Still I hear you say you wanna end your life. Now and again we try to just stay alive. Maybe we'll turn it all around and cause it's not too late, its never too late


I almost feel bad that my life is slowly making itself right. I hate seeing all this pain and I wish there was something I could do. If I had enough money to give people to solve their problems, then the world would just be such a nice place. But...I don't.

So I'll continue with my schooling and I kinda hope that when I finally get a job, I can move from this depressing town and to somewhere that will make me a much happier person. I think I am going to move to a city because I have loved my life in the city.

Who knows.

I just don't know right now.

Melancholy

It's one of those nights where I don't have a lot of stuff coming up, but I have so much on my mind. And it is bothering me! 


I don't know really. I have been thinking about the past and such, which I shouldn't really worry about that much, as it is the past, but it's hard not to think about what could have been and all.


There are some people in my life that I really miss. There are also some people in my life that I don't think I would have gotten close to if certain people hadn't left my life.


I was thinking back to high school earlier and I remember those years as some of the hardest years of my life in truth. I had to deal with my aunt and uncle which was hard at the time. But at the same time, there were parts of my life that proved to be so hard after I left high school as well.


I guess I never thought my life would be this way. At the same time, I am so happy with where my life is right now.


Here I am in this crazy, mixed up world that I call my life.

Song of thought: September- Daughtry